There are so many important things going on in the world right now like coronavirus and a messy election, but what brings me out of my blogging coma.. the Bachelor. It's a joke to most educated, responsible people, but it has been a guilty pleasure of mine for at least the last 15 years. Most of the time it captures my attention to escape in the drama knowing "at least things aren't that bad for me." Sometimes I get caught up analyzing the way people connect (or don't) and sometimes I'm just a sucker for a good love story.
This season has been a mess. The Bachelor, Peter Weber, finished third on Hannah Brown's season of The Bachelorette, and all season long they've teased us with possible outcomes to the show that might have included Hannah B or a producer let alone any of the actual women on his season of the show. Madi Prewitt was a frontrunner this season from the beginning. She had the first one-on-one date and Peter took her to his parents' vow renewal. She stayed out of the drama with the other women on the show and seemed to be a steady constant for Peter. And then... they got to the final three which traditionally means fantasy suites which traditionally means sex.
Timeout for more background/history of the show: While many viewers and "contestants" assume sex and think everyone should expect and accept sex, it has not been a given. Nick Viall has been open about only sleeping with one woman, Hannah Brown was open about not wanting to sleep with one of her guys and Sean Lowe said in his book that he didn't sleep with any of his final three. Nearly all (if not all) leads (the bachelor or bachelorette) acknowledge the most important thing about the fantasy suite is time with each of the final three without cameras.
Essentially Madi told Peter (in not so clear terms initially) that she would have a hard time moving forward with him if he slept with the other two contestants. Some people felt like that wasn't fair of her to expect that of him. She made it the most clear to me when she asked how she was supposed to accept a proposal six days after he slept with someone else. I don't think she was slut shaming him or forcing her beliefs on him as much as she was sharing where she was in their relationship despite the fact that he was still in relationships with two other women.
Fast forward to the final two. Madi gets some grief for accepting a rose after Peter was honest with her about being "intimate" with the other two women. Did she go back on her word? Did she compromise her beliefs? I think she was still processing and needed more time. The tradition of final two is to meet the lead's family. Madi went second and she and Peter had a long conversation outside (that evidently annoyed Peter's family) while they tried to resolve some of their fantasy suite issues. While sometimes painfully drug out, I thought it was refreshing to see a couple work through conflict and while they hadn't solved all of their problems, they seemed adorably in love. Peter's family wasn't so convinced and really put them through the ringer with questions.
Presumably the next day, Peter and Madi have their final date before he has to choose. She is visibly struggling during a helicopter ride and then once they reach the perfect remote spot to chat on a blanket, she ends things with him. This is the part that really hit home for me. I have had multiple conversations with guys I loved (or thought I did) trying to break up with them knowing my faith didn't align with their faith and our lifestyles were too different. I know there are couples who have found a way to make it work, but I spent a lot of time in prior relationships trying to lessen my faith to make a relationship work... especially when everything else was working great. Looking back I know everything else wasn't working great and I shouldn't have to lessen any part of me to make a relationship work, but I feel like I've been in Madi's shoes (minus the whole tv show thing) and I felt for her as she struggled through that conversation and had to walk away.
Fast forward to the finale and Peter ended his engagement and Chris Harrison filled in Madi. Madi admitted she wasn't over Peter and flew out to LA to confess her feelings for him. It seemed like a happy reunion, but they had an uphill battle ahead. On stage, there was still a lot of uncertainty and they seemed a little distant. Peter's family was not supportive (to say the least) and there was a part of me that wanted them to make it to spite his family. I kept hoping Peter would come to his senses and find his own passion for faith like Madi, but that was not to be as a few days later they announced they were going their separate ways.
Why do I feel the need to recap the last couple of weeks of The Bachelor when you could have just watched it yourself or read your own recap on any number of websites? I'm not exactly sure, other than it was so eerily familiar while still feeling like a lifetime ago. I'm so grateful for God's steadfastness to help me walk away from those relationships... sometimes with some help from the guy... so that I could sit here years later with an amazing husband and (almost) three (usually) adorable kiddos. It doesn't always feel worth it in the moment, but it really is.
*Clarifying to say not every prior relationship falls into this category. I certainly tried the alternative thinking if I just found a Godly man, that God would bless that relationship and that certainly doesn't always work either!
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