I've lost two people I cared about in a little more than two weeks. I'm not sure death is ever easy, but I think I get comfortable not dealing with it for awhile until it comes back to remind me. This week has been especially hard. I was definitely not one of Colton's best friends, but we had plenty of mutual friends and he always treated me like a best friend when we saw each other. I can't decide what hurts more... losing someone... or watching people you care about lose someone.
This week has been a careful balance of tears and laughs... standing still in a moment of sadness and moving forward in a moment of daily routine. How do you say goodbye but never forget? How do you grieve but still rejoice in God's blessings? How do you wait patiently but not get stuck in this moment?
I find some comfort in Psalm 116:15... "Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints."
I'll never forget...
"we are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. we don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. we won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. we were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home." - twloha
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