I have a habit of diving in head first... all in... particularly in my job and friendships. Sometimes more cautious almost too cautious in relationships but pretty dedicated to whatever I'm committed to...
For the last four years and three months I have been completely engrossed in my job. I know that I could be the awkward SID that only worked 8-5 plus the events and didn't "waste" time interacting with coworkers and students but I feel like I would be miserable.
Occasionally I've entertained the idea of working for a different school, but I've always thought I would have a hard time working for a school I didn't have a connection to.. Working for my alma mater means I have a vested interest in the teams and I honestly care about their success.
During my first semester here I had the privilege of watching the women's soccer team earn a bid to the NCAA National Tournament for the first time in 11 years. I think I was more excited than they were... the opposite felt true this year when the team finished seventh in the conference. I tried not to look it up, knowing it would irritate me more, but since we started a women's soccer team in 1985, we have never been lower than fifth.. and even then we were only fifth twice in 1999 and 2009. The conference started a conference tournament in 2000 and Methodist had never been left out of the semifinals until this year.
I'm always going to have a connection to the women's soccer team as an alum. And I care a lot for the lacrosse team as a semi-alum and sister of an alum... and as a former official scorekeeper for the women's basketball team I obviously care about them. I've created connections with other teams over the last few years and I get sucked into the wins, losses and the drama. I want to fix the problems and I want everyone to win a national championship.
On Friday one of my closest friends from my college soccer team came down from Virginia and I was the nerd that made us get takeout and sit in front of my computer to watch our volleyball team in the conference tournament semifinal. I felt silly but also knew if we had won I would have never forgotten that I missed it. I wish I could have been there in person... like somehow I would have made the difference in the outcome.
I'm always babbling about balance but I'm still trying to find it. I am grateful for my job and glad I can be a part of college athletics but I want to remember my role. I can't take credit in the wins or really bring much comfort in the losses. But I can listen...
For the last four years and three months I have been completely engrossed in my job. I know that I could be the awkward SID that only worked 8-5 plus the events and didn't "waste" time interacting with coworkers and students but I feel like I would be miserable.
Occasionally I've entertained the idea of working for a different school, but I've always thought I would have a hard time working for a school I didn't have a connection to.. Working for my alma mater means I have a vested interest in the teams and I honestly care about their success.
During my first semester here I had the privilege of watching the women's soccer team earn a bid to the NCAA National Tournament for the first time in 11 years. I think I was more excited than they were... the opposite felt true this year when the team finished seventh in the conference. I tried not to look it up, knowing it would irritate me more, but since we started a women's soccer team in 1985, we have never been lower than fifth.. and even then we were only fifth twice in 1999 and 2009. The conference started a conference tournament in 2000 and Methodist had never been left out of the semifinals until this year.
I'm always going to have a connection to the women's soccer team as an alum. And I care a lot for the lacrosse team as a semi-alum and sister of an alum... and as a former official scorekeeper for the women's basketball team I obviously care about them. I've created connections with other teams over the last few years and I get sucked into the wins, losses and the drama. I want to fix the problems and I want everyone to win a national championship.
On Friday one of my closest friends from my college soccer team came down from Virginia and I was the nerd that made us get takeout and sit in front of my computer to watch our volleyball team in the conference tournament semifinal. I felt silly but also knew if we had won I would have never forgotten that I missed it. I wish I could have been there in person... like somehow I would have made the difference in the outcome.
I'm always babbling about balance but I'm still trying to find it. I am grateful for my job and glad I can be a part of college athletics but I want to remember my role. I can't take credit in the wins or really bring much comfort in the losses. But I can listen...
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