embracing change...

I'm not very good at change. I'm not sure I know many people who are. This semester has been full of change and I'm trying to become better at embracing it. Last week was full of ups and downs. It felt like one bad thing would happen and thankfully God came through with something positive. 

Most notably... I'm teaching a class. When I was a kid all I wanted was to be a teacher like my mom. As I got older I really liked math but I just couldn't picture myself teaching and after not settling on something else I wanted to do with a math a degree, I switched to sport management. Since working at Methodist for the past few years I occasionally daydream about the lives of professors who seem to have more free time than I do. I know there are some who still put in ridiculous hours and others who are doing ridiculous research to move up in their field... but I guess I've become jealous of their ability to set their own schedule. I keep thinking about this whole teaching thing but I never knew if I would be any good at it or if I would really like it. I don't want to do it just because I'm lazy. Some unfortunate circumstances opened up a fortunate opportunity for me and I'm excited about it. Today was the first day... hopefully they all come back Wednesday. I guess the cool thing about teaching is if they don't show up, I have control over the outcome!
The next month is crazy busy with fall sports playing the final half of their season and basketball gearing up in a couple of weeks. I keep praying about balancing this life and trying to figure out where I'm headed. 

I've been talking about the new needtobreathe cd but I heard the "Garden" on the way home from volleyball tonight. It makes me think about Jesus and his last night in the garden asking God to change the plan... to not let him have to go through the next phase... before eventually just completely and totally surrendering. I'm making that my prayer tonight... let my heart be after you.

Won't you take this cup from me?
because fear has stolen all my sleep.

If tomorrow means my death
pray you'll save their souls with it.

Chorus: "Let the songs I sing bring joy to you.
Let the words I say confess my love.
Let the notes I choose be your favorite tune.

Father let my heart be after you."

In this hour of doubt I see
who I am is not just me
so give me strength to die myself
so love can live to tell the tale.

Chorus: "Let the songs I sing bring joy to you.
Let the words I say confess my love.
Let the notes I choose be your favorite tune.

Father let my heart be after you."

Father let my heart be for you
For you
For you
For you

Chorus: "Let the songs I sing bring joy to you.
Let the words I say confess my love.
Let the notes I choose be your favorite tune.

Father let my heart be after you.