I've been slacking... big time. I haven't done as well keeping in touch with my long distance friends. I haven't been running (ok when did I ever do that on a regular basis... but still). I haven't posted a blog in awhile either.
For some, blogs are stupid. For some, blogs are a way to eavesdrop on their myspace "friends'" lives. For some, blogs are a survey posting system or a lyrics proclaimer. For me, they have been a way to release... sometimes a way to share... but usually a way to get out what I can't get off my mind. Sometimes I delve too deep or sometimes maybe not deep enough.
Thanksgiving has come and gone, but I have a lot to be thankful for in my life. I had the opportunity to go home for a couple of days and I was determined to spend the time with my family. I did some Christmas shopping with my mom, had a movie night with my sister and hung out with the fam Thanksgiving day. I hadn't been home since the beginning of August so it was just comforting to be back on the shore. Sometimes I take home for granted but I'll always have a special place in my heart for the shore. My older brother and sister are crazy in their own ways but I'm so grateful for our relationships. As weird as our family is with siblings 22 years apart and a nephew older than his aunt... I wouldn't have it any other way.
Thanksgiving always ends up being a bit of a tease because my trip home is so short making me anticipate Christmas even more. I can't wait to go home again in a couple of weeks and visit friends and family. Of course whenever you see people you haven't seen in awhile, and you're 25 years old, everyone's bound to ask about your marital prospects. It's always fun to explain you're still single, or maybe you have to explain what happened to the guy you were dating the last time you saw them. Every time I think I'm ok with being single, I have to re-convince myself when I explain it to everyone else.
I was talking to a friend last week about finding "the one." There are a lot of people that say you'll find him/her when you least expect it or when you stop looking. I do believe sometimes we try too hard or we settle for stupid relationships just to be in a relationship. On the other hand, if I just sit in my office 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, the chances are slim that "the one" will waltz into my life. We say to let go of our problems and give them over to God, and I agree we shouldn't worry, but if I need a job, I still have to send out my resume, or make some connections to find a job opportunity. I'm not planning on sending my relationship resume to all the single guys in the world, but I am going to be satisfied with where I am in my life while still pursuing things/people that will enrich my life. I'm thankful for the people in my life and I'm praying that some day God will bless me with a husband that will only add to the blessings I already have. I just have to keep convincing myself! :)
Completely random sidenote... on the way home for thanksgiving, I was in my third accident in a year. Thankfully everyone was safe. You can't even really see a whole lot of damage from the exterior but a cute little neon slid right up underneath my car and managed to do almost $3,000 worth of damage. By the way, none of the accidents have been my fault. I think in the five and a half years I've owned the CRV, I've almost replaced the entire car. Have no fear, it's in the shop and should be fixed sometime before 2008. In the meantime, I'm hitch hiking around Fayetteville thanks to some great chauffeurs. I appreciate the help kids!
Okay one more random sidenote... sometimes people will surprise you. I'm sometimes afraid to completely trust people, but I want to give you a shot... at the same time I don't want to get hurt. I think I've learned not to cut someone out before you give them a chance. Sometimes living here hasn't always been dreamy, but "monarchs forever" has given me a new outlook on what can be in a group of friends. I'm "forever" grateful.
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