fear

I've been a slacker in terms of keeping up with things on stalker space lately... I finished the zone at the end of july. I'm not sure I can honestly put the entire summer into adequate words. I really needed a break from the office grind, and I absolutely love camps. Some day I'm going to own my own camp and just work camps all the time... (and hire people to fill in when I need a vacation).

I left New Mexico on a Friday, went to a bridal shower on Saturday and was back at my new apartment in North Carolina on Sunday... supposed to start work on Tuesday until Monday afternoon I found out I had a work meeting in Williamsburg on Tuesday morning. Another meeting on Wednesday and since I got back, I've spent the last two and a half weeks writing a 52-page football media guide so it can be printed in time for the first football home game. I love my job, but it's definitely keeping me busy.

I have reunited with some old fayettenam friends and met some new people, but it is still a process of getting back into the whole long distance friendship with some others. Life keeps moving so quickly and I don't want to get so caught up in it that I don't have a chance to really live it. Careers, marriage, family, friends... they all take up more space so things get juggled around and hopefully nothing gets neglected.

I stole some wise words, but not particularly related... from Nichole Nordeman from the August CCM...

"Fear is potent and central to our lives... While fear is easy to identify on a global scale and in a time of war, consider the more subtle kinds of fear we breathe in and out all day. Career paths are chosen by our fear of financial instability. Relationships wither and die from a fear of intimacy. Fear of cancer motivates me to pick out certain vegetables in the produce department. Fear of rejection makes me laugh at jokes that are offensive and demeaning. Fear of judgment keeps me from raising important questions about my faith. And I might jeopardize my status as an evangelical, but it astounds me to consider the number of people who continue to enter into a relationship with Jesus because a well-intentioned preacher spent half the sermon hollering about how hot the lake of fire is going to be. And, naturally, people respond... out of fear. I think I got "saved" five different times between the ages of 9 and 13 for the same reason...
'There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear...' 1 Jn 4:18
...Imagine living a life where decisions, both personal and international, were made out of perfect love and not paralyzing fear. Imagine what that would look like to the world to see Christians responding from a place of certainty rather than reacting from a place of panic and damage control."