thanksgiving

Well Thanksgiving has come and gone and I'm not sure if there are that many exciting stories to share as a result, but I figured I could subject you to some random babbling to mark the occasion. I think I may have some form of ADD in an extension of the medical definition. When I was a kid, people would always ask me or my friends if I was ADHD or on ritalin because I was always wired. But my mom (a special education teacher who is pretty wise when it comes to these things) says she never thought it was a possibility. I don't want people who have been diagnosed with ADD or ADHD to think I'm trying to take away from it at all, because I'm not, and I have no idea what it really means to take medication every day or not be able to focus or have control.

Besides, I'm a control freak, but I get restless in the biggest sense of the word. In high school I wanted to graduate early because I was tired of it and my friends were leaving. Then I went to college and liked it, but got tired of that too. I lived in Raleigh for a little while before moving back to Maryland to work... before I decided to head off to grad school. I decided that wasn't as good as I thought it would be and finished that in a year only to rush home... to what? I'm getting restless again and it's only been four-ish months.

There's a part of me that wants the stability of just staying here and putting down some kind of roots, but there's another part that's ready for a change, something new, something different. I'm sure there are psychoanalysts that would say I'm running from something or have some other major character flaw that causes my restlessness... which may be true... but in the meantime, I'm in search of a new career. When all else fails I head back to school so maybe I'll get my doctorate after all... or maybe I can just get a teaching certificate, teachers don't seem to have problems finding a job... or maybe I can make it big as a reality tv star... I'm accepting any and all suggestions...

"our hearts are restless until they find rest in thee" -- augustine